accuracy

“Trauma impels people both to withdraw from close relationships and to seek them desperately. The profound disruption in basic trust, the common feelings of shame, guilt, and inferiority, and the need to avoid reminders of the trauma that might be found in social life, all foster withdrawal from close relationships. But the terror of the traumatic event intensifies the need for protective attachments. The traumatized person therefore frequently alternates between isolation and anxious clinging to others. […] It results in the formation of intense, unstable relationships that fluctuate between extremes.” 

—	Trauma and Recovery, Judith Herman

phantom

"It upset me; in those seconds everything irritated me, and all at once I realized that I must do something extraordinary, something altogether out of the run of my usual life.  Otherwise i should suffocate.  I felt that I must at least run away from my life for a while, that I could no longer swallow it's silt, that at least for the last time, before I rot, I had to get drunk on some thought, some passion or love, that I had to break something inside myself or about myself, storm run up to a high place—and then perhaps leap to death."

— The Hideout, Egon Hostovsky